Promise by Kristie Cook

Author:Kristie Cook
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Tags: daemoni, fantasy adult, kristie cook, amadis, urban fantasy adult, paranormal romance, paranormal adult, tristan knight, alexis ames, paranormal, promise, angels and demons, contemporary fantasy adult, urban fantasy romance, urban fantasy
Publisher: Kristie Cook
Published: 2010-07-18T16:19:22+00:00

Chapter 15

After that critical night, our relationship felt fragile and brittle, like it would shatter from the least bit of pressure. We spent time with each other every day, but not as much and conversation felt superficial, sometimes even forced. Sex wasn't even an issue because we didn't even try. I missed the emotional and physical closeness and berated myself for not letting him completely in, but I didn't know what to do to knock that wall down. I questioned just how much I did love him and if it would ever be enough to completely trust him. If I was even capable of loving that much.

I thought maybe it was just my self-image and fantasized about the Ang'dora, hoping I'd become as gorgeous as Mom. And a better match for Tristan.

"Mom, when will I change…become like you?" I asked one night when we were alone, putting my textbook to the side. We had more of those alone nights lately. I could feel Tristan pulling away out of pain and I couldn't seem to pull him back.

She shrugged and put her own book down. "It's been different for all of us. It seems we must experience a certain amount of real humanity. We haven't been able to pinpoint a specific cause-effect relationship, so it's difficult to say when or what will do it."

"When did it happen for you?"

"I was thirty-four, but I was the youngest ever. I was also the only one to have a baby after the Ang'dora. Besides me, the ages have ranged from thirty-eight to fifty-something. Most were somewhere in their forties."

"I'll get that old first?" I wondered. I hadn't been prepared for that. Mom had never given me details before and I just assumed she stopped aging in her mid-twenties. Tristan said he just stopped aging at twenty-one, so I thought it was the same for us.

I thought about the idea of living that many years as a somewhat normal human. It meant there was a good chance I could still have the settled life I sought, at least for a while. But then I realized I would get old and Tristan would not. I knew there would be some difference—Mom looked older than Tristan—but I'd never expected I would be near forty…or older.

I sighed sadly. "I hoped it would be sooner so maybe Tristan and I could get past this."

"I wish I could help, but we really don't know, honey. This is something you'll have to get through on your own. All I really know is we have each experienced true love first. Real love, like what you and Tristan have. So who knows with you? You're quite different than the rest of us, anyway."

"Will I be as beautiful as you and Tristan?"

She smiled brightly. "You will be splendid. Ours is an inner beauty that radiates outward. It is part of who we are. And you have so much love, hope and faith within you already—you will outshine all of us."

I figured that's what all Amadis moms told their daughters, because I surely didn't feel much love, hope and faith.

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