Perish by LaToya Watkins
Author:LaToya Watkins [Watkins, LaToya]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Penguin Publishing Group
Published: 2022-08-23T00:00:00+00:00
10
LYDIA
JAN ISNâT HAPPY TO see me when she arrives and finds me in the hospital room.
When she walks in, I say her name with so much excitement that I surprise myself. When I wrap my arms around her to embrace her as family should, she doesnât raise her arms to hold me back. She lets them hang limp at her sides.
Her eyes are dark beads surrounded by dark circles. Her hair is pulled back in a bun, but I can tell itâs thinning. When I embrace her, she feels so frail, so thin, that I think Iâll break her. She canât weigh more than a hundred pounds. She looks like an old woman and sheâs not even forty yet.
When I let her go, I return to my seat in the chair closest to Grandmoanâs bed and she sits in the chair across the room, right beneath the television. We donât say anything for a while, but I can tell sheâs having a hard time keeping quiet because she keeps taking deep breaths and smacking her lips.
âYou still walking around not believing in God or nothing?â she finally asks with her face all screwed up.
I shake my head and say, âItâs not that I donât believe, Jan. Iâm just not sure.â I make sure my voice is calm and try changing the subject. âYou think sheâll come back from this?â I ask, nodding in our grandmotherâs direction.
The last time I was here, Jan was huge with child. She was beautiful, but she judged me about what I was doing with my mother. Iâd come as a courtesy to the family. I wanted to let them know where Mother would be. Thought maybe theyâd finally want to see her. That theyâd finally care.
But Jan sucked her teeth and rolled her eyes when I told them that I was putting Mother away. When she spoke, her words were short and snippy. God donât want you driving your momma away. Black folk donât do that. We take care of our own.
When she said that, I looked at my hands and told her I didnât know what God wanted. That Iâd never heard his voice. That I wasnât sure I believed in him.
My aunt, her mother, didnât say a word. Just sat there in silence. Grandmoan cleared her throat and told Jan to hush her mouth. You donât know nothing about nothing you saying, she said. And for a minute, I thought she cared for me.
âIf God want her to be all right, she be all right,â she says. âThat old woman got a whole lot to pay for, though,â Jan says now.
âWe all have things to pay for, though, right?â I say.
She smacks her lips. âGrandmoan was mean and ainât no cause to be how she was,â she say. âThis all she got right here.â She sighs. âThis all she got left right here,â she says again, and her voice cracks a bit and I think she might cry.
Jan clears her throat and says,
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