Not Mine by Emma Evans

Author:Emma Evans [Evans, Emma]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-05-06T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter 7

I can’t describe the feeling. It feels too damn good. His kisses are setting my skin alight with each and every touch. I want more; I want far more and I know he is going to give it to me. I don’t think. I don’t want to think. This is physical and I can’t get enough of him. His lips brush across my neck. It’s only a whisper of a kiss but it has the desired effect. I can’t get enough of him. There’s a feeling I’m trying to push back. It has no place here. This is about us alone and finally being able to touch one another.

How I’ve longed to touch him. I’m clinging onto him as though he might disappear at any second. He’s not getting away now. I won’t let him. The need I have for him is so intense. I can’t make sense of it. I don’t want to make sense of it. I need to give into the way he is making me feel entirely. I’ve waited so long; too long. He has me right where he wants me. It should scare the hell out of me but the feeling only intensifies. He kisses my shoulder. Those kisses are so addictive. I don’t know how I ever did without them. I know without doubt I have never experienced passion like this before. My need for him is overwhelming.

I feel like one of those bad metaphors. I’m like a moth to the flame. I’m very well aware of what I am doing but I will not stop. He is danger; I knew it from the moment I first laid eyes on him. He’s different. The way I feel about him is different. His kisses stop abruptly. I want to protest but the words are lost on me when he fixes those deep blue eyes on me. I’m lost. I’m so out of my depth.

It hits me then. I can’t keep the feeling back any longer. Guilt engulfs me as my eyes make their way down to his hand as if the ring I know is going to be there will magically disappear. Of course it doesn’t disappear. I can’t tear my eyes away from the offending item. The feeling almost chokes me. This isn’t right. What we are doing is so not right. I hesitate. The world stands still. I know what I have to do. I lean forward and bring his lips back to mine. He is mine.

I jump up from bed as though I am awaking from a nightmare. It was a nightmare; such a beautiful nightmare. I’m sweating and I’m breathing hard. That dream felt so real. My feelings felt so real. I got lost and my moral compass evaporated. It was just a dream. It’s not real. For a split second I feel disappointed but it’s only for a split second. Shame still hits me as I’m aware of what I cannot vocalise. I want him and the fact that he’s married is irrelevant.

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