More Glimpses of Heaven by Trudy Harris RN

Author:Trudy Harris RN
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Tags: ebook, book
ISBN: 9781441213068
Publisher: Baker Publishing Group
Published: 2010-08-21T16:00:00+00:00

Ellen

“Something is holding her; you need to find out what it is”

Trudy Harris

Life had been hard for Ellen from the beginning. She had a child when she was only fifteen years old and had been on her own for all of the child’s early years; she simply yearned for a normal life and someone to love her. So often, young people who do not feel connected for any number of reasons – death, separation, divorce – look hard for that safe place where they can find some semblance of order and peace. They long to be accepted and to belong to someone. A baby, though very loved, did not do for Ellen what she had hoped for, and she was forced to raise her son on her own, which was difficult.

By the time she was thirty, she had been married to a good man for a few years, but her oldest son was a rebellious fifteen-year-old and had gotten into drugs. She realized he was now at the age she had been when she gave birth to him, but he would not stay in school or observe any of the family rules. This caused disruption for the entire family, which now included three little ones. In desperation, she did the only thing she thought would help the rest of her family. She made the very hard decision to have him leave the home, since no amount of discipline or intervention redirected his drug use or his lifestyle.

For the next twenty years, she and her husband raised a happy, well-adjusted family of three children. Although she didn’t hear from her eldest son again, he was never out of her heart or her prayers.

Now in her early fifties, Ellen was dying of end-stage pancreatic cancer, which had spread to many other parts of her body. Her husband and children loved her dearly, and she had done well by all of them. They had grown up to be fine men and women, and the thought of life without their mother was impossible for them to comprehend. Unable to remain at home because of her uncontrolled pain, she was admitted into the Hospice Center for care. She rested pain free and comfortable for the first time in quite a long time. Something, however, seemed to be keeping her from the peace that she and everyone else were hoping for. “Something is holding her,” her insightful and caring surgeon said to me one day. “You need to find out what it is. She’s lived much longer than we could have expected, and she is suffering on many levels.”

Ellen’s husband felt that for his wife to let go and die well, she would need final closure with her firstborn child. After many conversations within the extended family, an aunt admitted that she had remained somewhat connected to him over the years. She gave me his phone number, and I called him that day, explaining the circumstances of his mother’s medical condition and her need to see him again.

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