Like Ashes In The Wind by B C Morgan

Author:B C Morgan [Morgan, B C]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2024-03-05T00:00:00+00:00

The hot water washes over me, doing very little to stave the chills that have taken root. The moment we got back to the top, Tate threw me over his shoulder, and marched me inside my hideaway. I couldn’t demand he leave, not right away, not while I felt so… raw. Instead, I ran into the bathroom, threw on the shower, and have continued to hide under the heated spray for the past thirty minutes.

Pulling my knees up in front of me, arms wrapped tightly around them, as my head rests against the tiled wall, letting the water cover my face. Eventually the water will turn cold, and I’ll have to get my arse off the floor, cover myself, and face him. Can I? That question seems too impossible to even face. He won’t be able to understand why today of all days, is the worst time for him to show up unannounced. That the reminder of him makes the suffering of losing my mum — my best friend — so much… too fucking much to handle. Even the ghost of him, the memories he left me with, continued to wreak havoc, when he was hundreds of miles away from me. It wouldn’t be fair to blame it on him, the issue is all mine, but when is life ever fair? Was it fair to have all my dreams come true, only to have them snatched away in a blink of an eye? Where was the fairness when my mum collapsed, died in my arms, and having no way to stop it? Yeah, this life has never been fair, so why would it start now?

A soft knock sounds on the door, and I slink further down the fall, disappearing within myself. Even as the water runs cold, I welcome the numbness that soon follows. Teeth chattering means nothing, I simply want to feel nothing. Let the numbness win, if only for a moment.

The water shuts off, and my eyes remain squeezed closed. A soft towel wraps around me, before a set of muscular arms are gathering me up within their hold. There is nothing in this life that will make me open my eyes. I can’t. If I do, then I’ll have to go back to hating the only guy who has ever owned me completely. It may have been years ago, but having him here is like a cruel reminder of all the things we never got to have, and I guess, never will.

The rocking movement of being carried in his arms has my mind drifting, slowly bringing me to the edge of oblivion. Exhaustion is setting in, sleep staking its claim on me, and yet still I fight it a little. Needing to remember the way he feels, while I can pretend our past isn’t ours. That this is our truth and everything before was nothing more than a horrible nightmare, so strong it’s taken a little longer than normal to shake from my system.

A soft mattress meets my back, while my head sinks against the pillows.

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