Frost (EEMC) by Hunter Bijou

Author:Hunter, Bijou
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: bikers, action
Publisher: Bijou Hunter
Published: 2021-01-17T00:00:00+00:00

PART 6: PAPA, CAN YOU HEAR ME?

MONROE

The night before our scheduled “double date” with Lowell and Topanga, I’m gripped by endless nightmares. Each one is worse than the last. I wake up scared but force myself to remain quiet to avoid bothering Conor. Eventually, I dream of Zella’s funeral, where I stand next to a stony-faced Needy. The frigid weather has everyone shivering. Nearby, Immee struggles not to cry over her dead baby in the white coffin.

The McNamee family doesn’t believe in public displays of emotion—except rage. And standing next to his wife, Clive does look pissed. He glares at the coffin as if it personally fucked him over. Brian Clive and his younger brother, David Clive, look stoned. They stare at a spot in the distance while the pastor speaks.

In the dream, my mom disappears, and I start to believe she’s dead, too. I catch Clive’s gaze, and he smiles mockingly at me. In real life, though, he hadn’t looked at me at all that day.

I wake up, believing Clive is in Elko and planning to kill me. I even feel him outside in the Overlook parking lot, watching and waiting. My emotions are irritational. After all, my uncle wouldn’t come here to kill me himself. He has people for that. Yet, in my heart, I know he’ll soon punish me.

Only when I get up later, do I realize I’m more afraid of Lowell than Clive. I’ve spent my life searching for male approval. And despite his cruelty, I got used to admiring Clive. I felt so special when I could make him laugh, or he bragged about my team winning a game. But then Zella died, and he turned on me. Afterward, I became an object to sell off to improve his business reach. I meant nothing to him.

As much as Clive’s betrayal hurt, Lowell’s rejection gutted me. I pretend I’m tough and don’t care. But spending even an hour with him will tear apart more of my confidence. I consider faking a different personality with Lowell, which might gain his approval. But his affection would be based on a lie.

With that in mind, I plan to be me today. I’ll enjoy my time with Conor and deal with any hurt feelings Lowell causes. I’m too old to run and hide.

Conor and I arrive early at the Elko Play Center. When I’m reluctant to get off the Harley, he smiles back at me.

“Pretend we’re on a date. Just you and me. Sure, we’ll run into other people, but your focus should be on your sexy date.”

Smiling, I slide off the Harley. I’ve played miniature golf twice before. The first time I was too young to keep score. The second time was in high school on a date, and the guy kept laughing at how badly I did. I’ll never forget how shocked he was when—rather than offer him a blowjob—I dumped him. What moron mocks a seventeen-year-old hormonal teenage girl and then expects to get lucky?

Fortunately, I’m currently dating a genius.

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