Ankle Deep in Sugar by Rocklyn Ryder

Author:Rocklyn Ryder [Ryder, Rocklyn]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Magpie Press
Published: 2019-12-08T16:00:00+00:00

Rachel

So much for my strong woman storm out.

Thankfully, Colter picked a restaurant located in the catacombs of a casino. A women's restroom just a little ways down the wide mall corridor made for an easy sanctuary so I didn't have to make my way through the crowded building with a face covered in running mascara.

I stood in front of the floor to ceiling mirrors for a long time after doing my best to wash away the panda bear eyes and fixing the eyeliner I'd managed to wipe away in those efforts. My plan was to catch my breath, square my shoulders, order an Uber, and walk out of there with the determination of a woman who had her shit together.

Instead, when I opened up the app to call a car, I realized I didn't really know where I wanted to go.

So I stood in that bathroom and cried some more.

When I finally did pull myself together and left the lady's room, I made my way out front looking a lot less confident than I'd pictured it when I first stormed out.

The cab took me to a hotel and I collapsed on the bed in a new heap of tears.

It's been 2 weeks and I'm still here, thinking about how far I've come over the last year.

Well, not that far after all, I guess.

The hotel I'm calling home is an off-strip, extended stay place. One of those hotels that caters to people who travel for business and have long since become immune to the lights and sounds of Las Vegas and just want to get some sleep at night.

It's a big step up from the Bridge Star, for sure. So at least there's that. But I can't help but feel like, despite the new job, the new credit, and the new car-- which I snuck back to get while Colter was at the office because I've been a total chicken shit-- I'm still living in a hotel room, wondering what comes next.

Making the transition out of my job with the Meyers-Armstrong Foundation went smoothly enough. Since Colter already knew I was leaving, I've basically been working remotely from the hotel while they transition my work load to another manager.

My new job starts next week.

I guess it's time to think about looking for a place of my own.

That's something I've been putting off since I checked in to the hotel.

I don't know, I guess on some level I thought-- I hoped-- that Colter and I could work things out, but the more I think things over, the more I realize I really was just a sugar baby for him. Something he could own and manipulate through money.

When he gave me the position with the Foundation, it was never really about giving me new job experience and expanding my resume. It was just a hand-out to placate me and give me a false sense of accomplishment.

Everything he did in the name of "helping" was just his way of giving me the illusion of getting my life back on track.

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