A fire by Sarah Masters

Author:Sarah Masters [Masters, Sarah]
Language: nld
Format: epub
Tags: erotic MM, Romance MM
Published: 0101-01-01T00:00:00+00:00

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The weekend ends all too quickly. Sunday

morning saw us eating a cooked breakfast and

making our way down the hill toward Josh and

Sue’s. I store my car in their garage, and we’re

using it for the long drive back to the place I once

called home.

The car trundles along at a steady pace, and

Ryan’s dozing in the passenger seat. I take the

time to think about what’s to come and how I’ll

deal with it. I’ve got no idea how long the police

enquiry will take, but I’m guessing the money

Mum left me will see me through if my boss at the

candle factory doesn’t take kindly to me just

bunking off like this. Yeah, I know Josh said he’d

tell him why I’d gone and that business is slow at

the moment—and the boss is a good sort—but

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still, I can’t help feeling I’m taking the piss out of

his kind nature. Well, nothing I can do about that

now. We’re halfway back, and someone’s got to

sort out the old dear’s funeral, clear out the

house, and put it up for sale.

I think about that for a while. Mum never told

me much to do with her finances, and for all I

know she might have remortgaged and still owe a

stack to the bank. No matter. I’ll deal with that

when it comes to it and not before. If I think about

things now I risk overloading myself with shit and

breaking down from stress. Because it wouldn’t

be from Mum’s death. No, never that.

But what if it hits me unexpectedly? What if,

despite the past four years and me telling myself

I don’t care for her, I find, when it comes right

down to the wire, that I do? What if those good

memories resurface—more than I realised were

there—and I miss the woman? What if I miss her

and hate her in equal measure?

What if…what if…what if…

I blink and sigh, shutting out the persistent

thoughts, turning to other, more pleasant ones.

Outside Josh’s, before our journey began,

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something clicked inside and enabled me to say

the words I should have said to Ryan a long time

ago. Maybe saying them in front of Josh helped,

I don’t know, but I said them all right.

“I expect I’ll bring Ryan back with me to live.”

Ryan had nodded, and his face lit up, eyes

wide, smile firmly in place. God, it had been so

easy, and I wonder if I was able to say it because

the old dear has gone. She can’t disapprove now,

and there’s no one else left for me to ask

permission to live the life the way I want to live it.

Once we’d got in the car, Ryan had asked,

“You all right?” the way he always does, always

has, and yeah, right at that moment I was all

right. Blinding, I was blinding, and now I’m

burning.

Burning with love.

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