The Best Friends (to Lovers) Bargain (V-Card Diaries) by Lili Valente
Author:Lili Valente [Valente, Lili]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 1230005679638
Publisher: Self Taught Ninja Inc.
Published: 2022-07-20T23:00:00+00:00
CHAPTER SIX
Jess
Yep, this is lust, all right.
And considering Iâm not the type who gets horny for trees or chipmunks and Samâs the only other human around, that can only mean one thingâIâm lusting after my best friend.
Iâm lusting after Sam, the boy Iâve seen snort orange soda out of his nose at least twice and who went through a ânot super serious about showeringâ phase when we were twelve. (Though, to be fair, I was also going through the same phase and once went three weeks without soap before I finally remembered to ask my mom to buy more for my bathroom.)
But still!
I have seen this boy at his grossest and silliest.
But youâve also seen him at his sweetest and his best and you know you love him. Youâve loved him forever. Would it be so crazy if that love got a little moreâ¦tingly now that youâre all grown up?
âGotta go,â I say, bolting to my feet and stepping back into my slide-on sneakers. âBathroom emergency. Itâs coming on fast.â
âOh shit,â Sam says, popping up beside me and gathering the unopened POG and marshmallows into a makeshift sack made of the balled-up quilt.
âLiterally,â I say, his snort as we hurry back toward camp easing the clenched feeling in my chest.
Yes, poop jokes. Thatâs who Sam and I are together.
Weâre playful and a little gross and most importantly, just friends.
Anything else would beâ¦horrible.
It would be hella weird and very bad.
The inner voice is on crack with that âall grown-upâ stuff. Iâm not grown up! Iâm only seventeen and still look like a twelve-year-old if I forget to put on my push-up bra. Iâm not ready to tingle with anyone except myself, in the privacy of my own home, when my parents are both at work, with my bedroom door locked and the fan on high to cover the sound just in case the neighbors are eavesdropping from their backyard and have really good hearing.
The thought of sharing that side of myself with anyone else makes me feel like I swallowed an ice-cold bowling ball.
And my gut assures me it would be even worse with Sam than with a stranger. A stranger, I could hold at an emotional distance. A stranger wouldnât know me, inside and out, and be able to read every thought zipping through my head. With someone Iâve only known a little while, Iâm pretty sure I could have sex, see what all the physical hype is about, and move on without freaking out about it too much.
But with Samâ¦
It wouldnât be casual or chill or âjust physical.â It would be intense and honest andâ¦scary. He would see even more of me than he has already, so much that there would be nowhere to hide if things went wrong. I would be laid bare, more vulnerable than Iâve ever been in my life.
âToo bad you didnât figure that out before you made a stupid sex deal,â I mutter to my reflection as Iâm washing my hands in the bathroom, shaking my head at my Dora the Explorer self.
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