Loss by Tom Piccirilli

Author:Tom Piccirilli
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Publisher: Tom Piccirilli
Published: 2011-04-26T18:21:16+00:00

The note was signed: MOJO.

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You couldn’t be better off dead. You were already a phantom in this city. The world spun by filled with the vacuous and the caustic and the fearful. They hunched down inside their coats and disappeared before you really knew they were there. They muttered to themselves and turned away from bright lights and loud noises. I’d raised my voice only once on the street in the past month, and that was hailing a cab. Sometimes I wondered if I’d even know it when my heart quit beating.

The 1976 one-hit-wonder lady who sang “Sister to the Swamp” knocked on my apartment door and asked if I’d repair the broken shower head in her bathroom. She still had an enormous afro and wore the kind of silky, streaming dress that she’d worn on Soul Train during the disco years. I got my toolbox and followed her upstairs. She had the gold record mounted on the wall near the window so that the sunlight would send a molten yellow across the room. Everywhere I looked were photos of her with politicians, sports legends, and other musicians popular at the time.

When she spoke I heard very little beside the lyrics to “Sister to the Swamp.” The heavy bass rhythm of the song pumped through my head. I got into the tub and worked the shower head until I got it fixed. When I finished, the 1976 one-hit-wonder lady was at the window staring at the rush of foot traffic on the sidewalks below. She held one hand up to the glass like she was trying to find her way through without breaking it. She wanted to go outside. She wanted to sing for the people. I’d seen that haunted need in her eyes and the eyes of the other shut-ins for a couple of years now. I wanted to ask her why she didn’t just step outside and do her thing. But even I knew it was impossible. Time had moved on without her and she wouldn’t be able to get back up to speed. Her photos and her gold record and the lyrics to her one song were all she had left now. She’d chosen that path and it would have to be enough for her. She said nothing more to me and I grabbed my toolbox and got out of there, back into the world. It felt very much the same on one side of the door as the other.

I got downstairs into my place and sat in front of the computer screen willing the words to come. They wouldn’t. Every time I thought of King Carver in Danish, a flutter of nausea worked through my guts.

I shut my eyes. I let my fingers move across the keypad on their own. I started typing. Corben and I used to clown around with automatic writing back in college. I did it every now and again when I wanted to clear my mind. I forced my focus to some far corner of my brain and left it there.

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