Everything's Perfect by Nicole Kennedy
Author:Nicole Kennedy [Kennedy, Nicole]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781800240155
Publisher: Head of Zeus
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âThis wasnât how I thought it would be.â I stare woefully into my glass of organic, biodynamic English sparkling wine and I realize that Iâm not talking about the wedding, Iâm talking about my life. Before me, the valley glitters with lights punctuating the dark. Weâre sitting up the hill on hay bales outside a little tepee, the remnants of our hog roast breadcakes by our feet â it was a damn good wedding, Iâll give her that â with a bottle of bubbles we swiped from the bar. I feel like Iâm in a scene from Wedding Crashers. âI want what Mum and Dad had. For Poppy. And for myself. I want a normal family â Joe playing in the garden with Poppy, me washing up, jollily looking out over rolling hills and drystone walls. And I know thatâs total fantasy because who washes up these days, other than Dad?â
âThatâs deep, Mitts. Really⦠deep.â Her head jerks up. She looks at her empty hand, then gropes around the swirly fabric of her skirt before retrieving her phone from the hay bale. She quickly stabs something into it.
âYou know your problem⦠you canât switch off. All day the screenâs been lighting up with notifications!â She says nothing. âAnd my problem? My problem is I fell in love with the wrong man.â This is where Lucy should say, Donât be silly! Joeâs lovely! He loves you! Instead her profile bobs next to me as she nods solemnly. âIt shouldâve been me todayâ¦â I start to cry. Where is this coming from? âItâ¦â â I gasp for air â âshould have been me.â
Lucy lifts her head and looks around as if sheâs just remembered where she is. She wrinkles her nose in distaste, the way she does at the mention of engagements, weddings and children who arenât Poppy. âWhat? Donât be daft. You never wanted to ride that train.â
âWhat?â
âYou know⦠You canât marry someone you donât fancy.â Sheâs right. I never did. That was part of the problem. âYouâve found someone you fancy, who you love, who loves you.â She points out each positive on a new finger, holding three in the air and trying to focus on them. âHe even likes romcoms.â She grimaces. âAnd the gym. Heâs like your soulmate. Youâve done it. Thatâs it.â
âBut what if itâs not enough?â
âYouâre pissed. Stop being melodramatic.â She wraps an arm around me, but I shake it off.
I feel the weight of it all; Iâm failing at everything: Lucy, Poppy, Joe. I look in my clutch bag for a tissue â whereâs that monstrous cupcake changing bag when you need it? Lucyâs eyes swim as she stares at her phone.
âWhat are you looking at?â I demand.
âNothing.â She turns her phone over quickly so I can only see the cover â navy, with her initials embossed in rose gold.
âWhat? What is it?â I forcibly try to take her phone. She moves to clamp her hand on top of it but Iâm that bit quicker; it scoots over the hay bale before toppling to the ground.
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