Emma's Protector by Lily London

Author:Lily London [London, Lily]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-06-29T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 5

EMMA

Ineeded to get my hands to stop shaking. I needed to calm myself down and think. All I could see, all I could feel, was Clay’s hands wrapped around my throat. It wasn’t the first time I had been choked but getting choked by an enemy was much different then waking up to the man you were sleeping beside doing it. I knew Clay was asleep. I knew he had no idea he was even doing anything. I had seen my fair share of PTSD episodes with my brother, I knew Clay had no control over the situation. Still, in that moment, I couldn’t help but think that I was going to die. That a man I could possibly grow to care for was about to kill me with his own bare hands. That would have ruined Clay forever.

I just needed a minute to get my emotions back under control. Then I could go back into the bedroom and speak with him. I knew he would be upset and tearing himself apart over this. Some women would have been done after this. I suppose I should have been, too. Except it wasn't that simple. Clay didn’t attack me in a heated argument or because I didn’t do the dishes. He did it because he was asleep and obviously dreaming about something that happened overseas. It was different, and maybe that was something only a soldier could understand. Still, that didn’t take away the initial shock and fear that coursed through me when I woke to his hands around my throat.

Looking into the mirror, I could see my throat was red, and I knew within a couple of hours it would be bruised. I would need to hide it with turtlenecks or a scarf until the bruising went away. This was not something I could have at work. I didn’t even want to think about how a precinct full of cops would handle seeing one of their own walking in with a handprint bruise around their neck. This night had not turned out even remotely close to how I thought it would. One thing I did know, I couldn’t hide in his bathroom all night. I needed to go back out there and speak with him about this. I had to let him know that I was ok and that I wasn’t mad. I still had feelings for him, which might sound insane, but it wasn’t truly his fault. It would be different if he did it in the heat of an argument or because I did something wrong. He was asleep, and I couldn’t hold that against him. Whatever feelings I had for Clay were still there. They were still strong, something I didn’t fully understand myself, but I was past the point of trying to understand it.

My feelings were there for him, and I was not the type of person to ignore my feelings or overthink things. I could tell that Clay cared about me as well, and because of that, this would hit him hard.

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