Cry Silent Tears: The heartbreaking survival story of a small mute boy who overcame unbearable suffering and found his voice again by Peters Joe

Author:Peters, Joe [Joe Peters]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9780007283828
Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers
Published: 2008-07-14T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter Ten

Being Groomed

After the introduction to Uncle Douglas, Amani brought several more men down to my cell to have sex with me. They usually came at weekends or during school holidays, but sometimes I was kept off school on a weekday and taken down to the cellar and I would know exactly what was in store for me.

It was as though after the experience with Uncle Douglas I had passed some sort of test and shown myself to be ready for the market. They were all strong and I soon gave up trying to resist them or fight them off. It was pointless because I was an undernourished nine-year-old and they were all grown men. Every protest I made just earned me a beating each time, which merely delayed the inevitable and meant that I would eventually be left in more pain than I would have to endure if I simply gave in and co-operated. It was better to let them get on with whatever it was they wanted to do to me so it would be over as quickly as possible and they would go away and leave me alone sooner. Amani kept telling me that everything that happened in my cell or inside the house had to remain a closely guarded secret. He pretended that it was for my own good that no one else found out.

‘If anyone ever finds out about this,’ he told me, ‘they will go to the police and they will put you in jail.’

I believed him because one of the men who came to the cell had told me he was a policeman and I had never had any reason to doubt the truth of that statement. The visiting policeman made sure I knew that he had locked up lots of little boys like me in the past, and he was always using his steel handcuffs on me in the cell. They seemed to be part of the thrill for him.

‘If you ever go to any of my friends at the police station and tell them what goes on here,’ he warned me, ‘I will get to hear about it and then I’ll come back here and kill you. Do you understand?’

I would always nod and keep my eyes averted, never wanting to look as though I was challenging them or being insolent. I had no cause to doubt that all these men would be willing to kill me if they felt they had to in order to protect themselves. Maybe they would even enjoy doing it. But it never occurred to me to tell anyone else anyway. Their secrets were safe with me. After all the things that had happened to me in the previous few years I had no reason to think that anyone would believe me or help me or make my life more bearable in any way. If even policemen were doing this sort of thing to children, who was there left for me to turn to? Since I

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