Knowing Jack by Rachel Curtis

Author:Rachel Curtis
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Publisher: Rachel Curtis
Published: 0101-01-01T00:00:00+00:00

Interlude

Jack

When you’ve surrendered to what you shouldn’t, it’s fucking hard to drag yourself back to reality.

It hurts like hell. Worse than hell. And there’s no hope for it to get better later on, since everything you want, everything that might make you happy, is what you’re never allowed.

If I could just up and leave, maybe it would be better. If I could take off and go halfway across the world—do a different job, save a different life—maybe the edge of the pain would grow a little more blunt. But I’m not even sure if escape is possible for me anymore. Even if I leave, I don’t think this can get better.

Every face I see will be Chloe’s. Every body I touch will be Chloe’s. Every voice I hear will be Chloe’s. Every breathe I breathe will be her.

Now that I’ve had her, now that I’ve felt her in every way, now that I’ve experienced who she really is, I’m in too deep to ever drag myself out. I knew it last night. I knew I should have gotten away while I could.

But I guess I’m weaker than I thought, or else the pull she has on me is too unstoppable.

Either way, I’m even more trapped than I was before. Never allowed to have her but never able to get away.

It’s a recipe for misery if there ever was one.

So I drunk myself into a stupor last night, after I left her. And I’ve been walking through the day in a daze, forcing myself to focus on my job, since that’s the one thing I can’t let slide. The stakes are too high. The stakes are Chloe’s life.

I’m so furious during the literature class about how both students and teacher are baiting Chloe that I can barely stand still. But then even worse happens, and some fucking kid decides to step up as Chloe’s defender.

If I were a genuinely selfless person, I’d be happy to have the animosity against Chloe deflated, no matter who’s doing it. But I’m not selfless. I’m just not. And it makes me want to break something to have some fucking kid do what I can’t.

And I know exactly why he did it too. The kid has a thing for Chloe. My Chloe.

And, because I’m trapped by this fucking job and my fucking attempts to do the right thing, I’m going to have to stand here and watch the kid make moves on Chloe. My Chloe.

And she’s going to be all grateful that the fucking kid stepped up to help her, so she’s not going to see him clearly. She’s upset with me, and she’s going to want to prove something. So she’s going to be vulnerable to this fucking kid who wants to swoop in and take Chloe. My Chloe.

In about thirty seconds, I’m just going to scoop her up and carry her off somewhere private, where I can give her everything she needs, wants, deserves, where I can bring her more pleasure than she’s ever

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