WILD by Kenzie Macallan

Author:Kenzie Macallan [Macallan, Kenzie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Steel Butterfly Press

Twenty-Two

Jess

I’m flippin’ pissed right now. The burka flies across the room as I rip it from my head. How could Pippa out me like that in front of Sean? How could my body betray me?

My emotions scream on the downslope of a rollercoaster. He left me, abandon me just like my parents. I won’t go through that again. I don’t know if I can let it go. He had his reasons, but I need to wrap my head around it. My fingers clutch the front of my blouse.

No man has ever made me hot and wet in the space of two minutes like he does. The way he talked to me, about me, had me tied up in knots. I loved it and I don’t know what to do with it. I need to hide my feelings from him until I can figure this out. My lust is snowballing, gaining strength and speed.

He closes the door behind him and leans up against it with his arms and legs crossed in front of him. “Out with it. Why are you so mad?”

I avoid looking at him. “I’m going to take a bath and regroup. We’ll talk about this later.”

I rifle through my suitcase in search of pajamas and march to the bathroom. He knows enough to give me space.

The bathroom is the size of a basketball court. There’s a rain shower, private toilet area, and my favorite part, the enormous clawfoot bathtub with jets and a waterfall faucet.

I’m obsessed with bathrooms. They were my hideaway growing up. I could escape from the tyranny of verbal abuse, soaking my hurt and sadness away. I’m hoping to soak my anger away.

I fill the bath with bubbles as I slip into the water up to my neck, jets blasting, and mountains of bubbles covering the top. The warm water surrounds my body and fills me with a sense of comfort and security. I breathe in through my nose and out of my mouth.

If I’m being truthful with myself, I fell in love with Sean years ago. The kiss we shared changed me and changed us. We were over as friends and I wanted more, but he refused to have much to do with me. I never understood why until he revealed what was going on behind the curtain. His father was a drunk, but I didn’t know how bad it got for Sean. My heart breaks for him and that’s where I’m conflicted.

My thoughts take me back to happier times between us when we were kids and there for each other no matter what. Hormones can be your best friend or worst enemy. For me, they were the enemy because I wanted something I couldn’t have with him.

Being the only girl of color in the school didn’t help. I was an outcast, bullied, and made to feel like I would never measure up to anyone’s standards. Homelife didn’t help, and I turned inward, creating stories in my head.

The jets pummel my body and I close my eyes as relaxation takes over.

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