The Bodyguard by Michelle Betham

Author:Michelle Betham [Betham, Michelle]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2022-04-19T16:00:00+00:00

Eleven

Lena

I never used to believe in fate. David kind of knocked that overly-romantic, saccharine shit out of me, and after he’d gone I’d decided never to fall for that sugar-coated crap again. I’d decided it was probably best to put a barrier between me and anything that had the potential to hurt me, although, let’s get one thing straight, David did not hurt me. He pissed me off, he humiliated me, he made me wary of ever embarking on another relationship ever again, but he didn’t hurt me. I was glad to see the back of him, I think I’ve already made that clear, but putting that barrier up, that was an important lesson. And then came Bodie Bekker.

I should’ve raised that barrier higher, even more so after what happened between us, because I’m not sure he’s feeling anything close to what I’m feeling right now. And I hate that I’m feeling anything at all, but the memories of that first time – the only time – we had sex, I replay those a lot. Pretty much all the time, to be honest. They live on in my brain, on an almost constant loop.

Our secret.

And they can be exciting, you know? Secrets. They don’t always have to be dark or dangerous, but right now, I think I’m experiencing both. On the one hand, there’s Bodie. My delicious secret. A man I started out wanting to get away from and now, against my better judgement, I’m suddenly one of those people who’s started believing in fate and destiny. I’ve decided we were always meant to be together, even if he doesn’t seem to feel the same way.

And then there are the kind of secrets my father and brother are keeping. My mother, too? I don’t know. But the atmosphere at home is growing darker; more claustrophobic with each passing day. Doors are closed in my face, I’m being instructed to leave my father and Ollie alone, they have important work to do, apparently. And it’s distracting. I’m worried.

“Hey. Do you fancy grabbing some fresh air?”

I look up from my desk to see Bodie standing in the doorway to my office, hands in pockets, his shirtsleeves rolled up over his forearms. He’s pretending to work here now. Dad’s idea. Just makes it easier for him to be around me all day when he’s in an office right next door to mine.

“I’ve got a lot of work to do.”

Have things been awkward between us, since we fucked? I’m not sure. They’ve been different, that’s a given. You can’t do what we did and pretend it didn’t happen. I mean, you can try, but it doesn’t always work. I think he’s trying harder than me. I don’t want to forget it, but I think I might have to get used to the fact that it was nothing more than a one-off, something that happened because we let our emotions get the better of us. That’s certainly how it seems to be for him.

“You should take a break.

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