Shawty Fell in Love with a Star 2: An R&B Love Story by Käixo

Author:Käixo . [., Käixo]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-08-24T20:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eleven

Everything was going great a week ago, then Duddy just switched up on me. He barely called and he only came over two times a week. I was starting to feel like the plans we’d mapped out weren’t going to come true. Dudley was just like every other man who’d tried desperately to get from me, what I willingly gave up to Duddy. My virginity and all for what? A baby inside of my stomach that wouldn’t be raised in a proper two parent home. Ugh, I hate myself for even believing him or falling for the idea of love and something more. I guess I was clouded by his image and the way he treated me. Duddy made me feel like I was a prize and nobody could approach me disrespectfully.

I craved that security from all the men in my family, but none of them seemed to care about me or for me, if you want me to be honest. I was just an extra this or that. Not needed or wanted. Miranda was the only friend I had and she was my cousin. I wasn’t a mean or cantankerous person, but most girls disliked me. Rita told me it was because I walked with my head held high and nobody likes a snooty booty. I can’t recall a time where I was rude or pretentious, but I guess having a little self-esteem was too much for these girls on my island to handle.

Now I need money and the only way to get it is following behind Jameson. He’s knee-deep in the streets and I guess I am too. I don’t cut or collect drugs, but I help him count his money. He says whatever I can’t put into a stack is mine. I guess this is the true definition of easy money, because so far I’ve managed to accumulate $10,000 dollars and counting. Well, not including the millions of trips to the toilet to piss, puke, or do an unpleasant combination of the two. I was exhausted, but if Dudley wasn’t going to step up, I needed to give my baby a chance in this cruel world. My baby boy or girl deserved that much… Because nobody asks to be here and if I can soften the blow the world gives, just maybe… My baby could be something better than me and do way better than where we are now.

Sitting on the porch, looking up at the stars, I began to rethink my life. I wonder what God’s plan for me truly was. Since the day I was born, until now, it’s never been easy for me and now I was questioning my existence. Why me? What had I done in a previous life, so bad, that I didn’t deserve parents or the proper love and support from my own family? And now this shit with Dudley, was starting to eat me alive. It’s going on three weeks since I’ve told him about my pregnancy and with each day he pulls further and further away.

Download

Copyright Disclaimer:
This site does not store any files on its server. We only index and link to content provided by other sites. Please contact the content providers to delete copyright contents if any and email us, we'll remove relevant links or contents immediately.