Risking Love by Toni Shiloh

Author:Toni Shiloh
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Toni Shiloh

Chapter Eleven

Lunch with Shorty had been amazing. Not once did he make her feel uncomfortable or lacking. Lord, why would you bless me with a man like Shorty? I’m not complaining, just amazed. He’s so patient with me and I desperately need that. Her lips quirked as she painted flowers onto the bookshelf.

Keeping with the tree theme, Nikki had drawn in leaves and was now adding a pop of color with flowers.

Lord, Shorty seems content to let me walk through the healing process, but I know he must be frustrated.

Then again his grin had been present throughout their entire lunch. Perhaps he really did want to be with her.

There’s no place else I’d rather be.

Okay, so he didn’t come right out and say he wanted to be with her, but surely that’s what he meant. Every action confirmed that he wanted to be with her. Help my unbelief, Lord.

“I’m blessed,” she murmured to herself.

It’d been a while since she’d truly been able to examine her life and be thankful for it. Often, she’d wished something could change. Whether it was her past or her attraction to Shorty. Finally, she’d accepted the fact that her face would flush and her heart would drum fast whenever he neared. And always, she’d wished something could change to make her worthy of him.

And now she realized her lack of self-worth had been perpetuated by her own warped view of herself. Which was why she had written Psalm 139:14 on a sticky and stuck it on her bathroom mirror.

“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.”

She would repeat it every day until the truth of it sunk deep into her soul, filling her empty places. Eradicating her low self-esteem and confirming the truth that she was the daughter of a King and His precious treasure. One that had been claimed by the blood of the Lamb.

Lord, if You’re willing, please help my unbelief flee in Jesus’ holy name. Please help me continue to move forward and pour out my insecurities to You and replace them with Your truth. Please continue to give Shorty the patience needed to wait for me. I could really fall for him, Lord, but the risk of love…

She sighed. “I’m scared.”

Her ringtone split the air with the strands of Jasmine Murray’s Fearless. Nikki jumped, splattering the rose-colored paint onto the tarp. Placing a hand on her heart, she dipped the paint brush into the water can, and then grabbed her cellphone.

“Hello?”

“Hey, girl, it’s Dee.”

“I know.” She grinned. “Caller ID, remember?”

“Right. I’m telling Luke next Saturday.”

“I’m so happy for you. Did you get those baby cowboy boots?”

“I did. Found some on Amazon. I hope it’s okay, but I shipped the package to your address. It should arrive tomorrow. Could you bring it to work?”

“Sure thing.” She sat down on her couch. “I can’t wait to hear how it goes.”

“Aren’t you coming?”

“I’m invited?” Her eyes smarted. “I thought you decided it would be just the two of you.

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