Fall When You're Ready by Jennifer Carr

Author:Jennifer Carr [Carr, Jennifer]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: JCarr Writes
Published: 2024-02-02T00:00:00+00:00

GOOD BAD DECISIONS

Country roads and whiskey nights

Falling down and picking fights

I made some bad decisions, yeah it's true

But good can come from the bad we go through

- Christopher Jordan, Good Decisions

34

JORDAN

The first thing I did when I woke up was check the desk in my room for the business card Mike had handed me before his departure. I needed to make sure it hadn’t been a dream because if it had been I might have crawled back into bed. But there it was, exactly where I had left it. Immediately after seeing his name and his music studio’s logo staring back at me, my thoughts turned to Rachel. Mike was in town because he and Melinda were visiting Rachel and her dad.

Would it be crazy to casually drop by and say hello? Probably. But I was still riding the high that I’d started last night, and it sounded like a good idea. First, I needed to talk to my mom.

By the time I had rehashed everything Mike and I had covered, with the exception of the topic of Rachel, Mom was in tears. At first I was nervous that they meant she didn’t want me to go. I’d chosen to stay with her rather than leave her alone once before and it had been an expensive choice for me. But she was one of the two most important people in my world, and I never once regretted being here for her. Now, though, I knew she would be fine if I wasn’t here. She had her weekly ladies group, she was working full time at an office, and I knew she’d gone out on a few dates even though she’d rather pretend I didn’t know about them.

If I thought about it for too long, memories and remorse would start taunting me. I’d let my pride and fear get in my way when I stayed before, but I wouldn’t let it happen again.

“So, what do you think?” I asked, unsure of what to expect. I knew what I wanted to hear, but would she tell me to go or ask me to stay?

Gripping my hands in hers she sniffled. “I am so proud of you. You have made some pretty hard choices in the last couple of years and even though I don’t know all of the reasons for them, I know you made some of them because of me. And I want you to know how grateful I am that you are my son. I also want you to know that this choice is completely yours to make, and any opinion I have about it doesn’t matter. But if you turn it down, I may not speak to you for a very long time.”

My eyes were burning from unshed tears at her words until they took a turn. A laugh burst from me causing the tears to spill over. We both were laughing as we swiped at our eyes. I wrapped her in a hug, and kissed the top of her head which rested well below my chin.

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