Saxon: Club Sin Book 5 by Jasinda Wilder

Author:Jasinda Wilder [Wilder, Jasinda]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 0101-01-01T00:00:00+00:00

So Much More

Terra

We're both quiet till after the food comes, and we've both eaten. Maybe I shouldn't be shocked at how good the food is at a joint that caters to the kind of men who frequent this place, but I am. Because it’s the best damn cheeseburger I've had in a long time.

Or maybe it's just the fact that I haven’t eaten since…fuck, I don't know. Yesterday? Before the wedding. Well before.

"So. What you said to Camilla," Saxon says, putting both of our empty plates in the sink and returning to sit beside me on the couch.

I sigh. "I'm too tired for the full story, to be honest. Cliff's Notes version is that I met this guy at the gym. He was hot, he was charming. He liked me. Made me feel sexy. This was eight months ago. I'd been on a hiatus from hooking up for a few weeks because I was getting bored. It was all starting to seem kinda the same, you know? I…" I wander over to the huge glass case along the wall containing a whole-ass armory. "I fell in love with him. Moved in with him. Did everything for him. Even when the shit he wanted in bed was weird to the point of freaky, I went along with it. Average kink shit, at first. Call him Daddy, spanking, choking. But then he wanted to watch porn, and okay. Sure. I'm okay with porn. But he was into weird, sick, dark shit. Shoulda been my first clue, but even after the kink, he still had this way of making me feel attractive. I gave it up to him willingly. That's what confuses me—what I still don't get. I loved him. I never said no. And then one day, I wasn't feeling good. Ate something bad, had things coming out of both ends for days. I was starting to get over it, but still not feeling great. Just queasy, you know? Keeping down crackers and soup, but just feeling like garbage.

"He wanted sex. I was like, I can't. I'm not feeling good. And he…he got mad. Really, really mad. It was like someone flipped a switch. He beat the shit out of me, and when I was so bloody and broken I couldn't fight back, he raped me. Not just once. Repeatedly. As I was bleeding. The more I cried and begged, the harder he got off.

"Come to find out, he was an actual psychopath. Dodging meds and involuntary stays, changing his name, running from similarly horrible shit he did to other women. He hid it from me. Acted normal, for, like, months. And then, just like that, bam! He turned into a ducking demon."

"Fucking hell, Terra." He sounds like he's dealing with some complicated emotions: anger, and compassion.

"Yeah, it wasn't great. I spent a week in the hospital. I'm still paying that off, actually. I haven't…” I swallow hard. "I haven't been with anyone since. I couldn't."

"Terra, Jesus. If I'd known—"

"I had to get over it.

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