A Tainted Hood Love by Shawnde CoCo

Author:Shawnde, CoCo
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: CoCo Shawnde Presents
Published: 2024-06-06T00:00:00+00:00

10

INAYAH

“Mama, where Geema?” Yasir asked, leaning on my bed as he played with his action figures.

It was midnight and I was curled up in bed. Hasan was sitting on the bottom of the bed tuned into the TV.

Today had been long enough for me but I still had trouble falling asleep. Getting my life back on track was a must, but the lack of sleep was killing me.

Yasir's simple question had the power to stress me out, and it did just that. The fact he asked for his Geema straight out of the blue, I knew he noticed her absence and missed seeing her.

“Work,” I hesitated.

The face my son released on me told me that he didn’t believe me not one bit. Fixing my eyes elsewhere, I tried to take my mind to a place where the past events with my mother wouldn’t pull me back in.

I didn’t know I was crying until I felt the hands of both of my boys wiping my wet cheeks. Just that quick I was crying my eyes out over a situation that I had no control over. What happened, was now in my past.

“Mama?” The boys asked, looking worried. I didn’t want to put that on my boys, so I gained my composure, getting rid of the tears. “Why you cry?”

Pausing, knowing I couldn’t break down right in front of them got me together real quick. “Everything is going to be alright,” I assured with a heavy heart.

They had a hard time believing, but they did, because I was their mother. Having them cuddle up under me, I felt all the love I needed.

The twins were unaware of why I was ever admitted into the hospital. Only thing that was told to them was that I was sick. I surely knew Mabel would have said too much in front of the boys with her gossiping friends, but she had done right by not allowing them to hear grown folk talk. I knew her old ass had been talking to just about everybody in the hood and for that, my business was out like ass on a hot summer day.

All night I couldn’t sleep and my mind wouldn’t let me get the flashbacks of me waking up in that run down house and getting drugs shoved through my veins. Every day was hell there and how I almost died, it kept me wide awake. It was a known fact that my mother took to me more than my big sisters growing up, but it showed now that she disguised her hate for me well over the past years.

Rolling out the bed, I had to get up and do something. I was still off from my job at the call center, so my days were spent in the house or at doctors appointments.

I couldn’t stay in this bed any longer or I was going to drive myself insane trying to get a couple of hours of sleep tonight.

Sitting on my porch, I rolled myself a blunt.

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