We are Lost and Found by Helene Dunbar
Author:Helene Dunbar
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Sourcebooks, Inc.
Published: 2019-07-11T00:00:00+00:00
July 1983
Friday night, Becky comes over to give me an excuse.
And to play fashion consultant, apparently.
Blue shirt, she says. It makes the green in your eyes stand out.
This feelsâ¦odd.
Why? she asks.
I think about the reasons: I donât know. Is this a date? I meanâ¦it might be, but Gabriel doesnât seem like the dating type, and do guys even date? Does Connor even know what his last boyfriend looked like in daylight?
What I say is, I donât know how to do this.
Michael?
Yeah?
Shut up and put on the blue shirt.
I change in the bathroom. Stare at my reflection in the mirror.
I donât recognize myself.
It isnât the blue shirt, or the fact that my hair isnât sticking up in all directions.
Itâs that even through the nerves, and the fear, and feeling as though Iâm declaring something that can never be taken back, I look happy.
I have a date. In Little Italy. With a boy. His name is Gabriel, and when Iâm with him, I want to stop time because he makes me feelâ¦
He makes me feelâ¦
I guess because he makes me feel alive. And he makes me feel like I know who I am.
Thatâs what I want to say to my parents when I leave the house.
James got us free tickets to that National Lampoon movie. Iâll be back by midnight.
Thatâs what I do say to my parents, despite the fact that James wouldnât be caught dead at that movie, and Becky has plans to see Andy, and from the dismissive look on my fatherâs face, Iâm glad I didnât say more.
At some point, there is bread. And salad. And pasta.
At some point, Gabriel orders a jug of wine that comes wrapped in straw, and I somehow donât get carded.
At some point, there are candles that have burned down to tiny white mountains and cake that tastes like coffee.
At some point he looks at me with those dark eyes and says, If I were nicer, I wouldnât be here with you, but I canât seem to stay away, and then laughs in a way that turns me to jelly.
And because of the wine and the candlelight and those eyes, I only hear that he canât stay away, and Iâm undone.
Gabriel leads me to a café off MacDougal.
I heard that Jack Kerouac used to hang out here, he says.
I order a cappuccino while Gabriel gets something made with orange juice and sparkling water.
Do you read Kerouac? I ask.
Gabriel smiles in a way that makes his eyes light up. No, he says. But I thought you would.
I keep trying, I say.
But underneath, something bubbles up inside me. I am consumed by the idea that Gabriel thought about what I might read, and figured out Iâd like to go somewhere the Beat writers hung out.
Bob Dylan wrote stuff here too, he says, looking over the edge of his glass.
I glance around at the worn wooden tables and the grooved floors and the high rafters. Dylanâs gravelly voice floats around and around in my head.
Then Gabriel looks
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