The First Beautiful Thing (Autumn in Love Book 1) by Jennie Green

Author:Jennie Green [Green, Jennie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2024-04-02T00:00:00+00:00

20.

Cameron

I've messed things up with her, and I don't know how to fix it. I've been a jerk. How could I have had a fit of jealousy like that? I know she can't stand my brother, just as I know she enjoyed herself with me the other night. We had a dreamy evening, and I turned it into a nightmare for her. I'm an idiot. I don't know how to relate to a woman like I'm doing with her, I've never done it before. I'm used to hooking up and disappearing. I've never slept with a woman. I've never held her in my arms all night long.

Yet, I managed to ruin everything.

I wish I could go back to her, apologize a thousand times if necessary, and take her in my arms and try to make amends. But I won't. I'll respect her request. After all, it was my fault.

I go back home. My mother will soon bring Sophie back, and I'll try not to let her see that I'm troubled. Yes, I'm troubled by our fight, and I didn't expect this reaction from myself.

I collapse on the couch next to Max and sink into the soft cushions. I lose myself in silence. Even though it scares me.

Every time I'm alone, I always try to fill my deleterious thoughts with music, or with the TV on, even though I don't even watch it.

Max looks at me. He sniffs the air and approaches me, rubbing against the couch. He rests his head on my leg. I stroke his furry, soft ears, lost in my thoughts. I sigh.

“I made a damn mess, you know?” I say, addressing Max.

He raises his fluffy little head, lifts an ear, and looks at me seriously.

“Now I'm talking to dogs, too,” I mutter, feeling ridiculous.

He gets up, jumps on me, and licks my face.

“Yeah, stay calm, though!” I play with him, scratching his belly.

Max gets off the couch and goes in search of his favorite ball.

I settle in better, sprawling out. I close my eyes. The moments I shared with her come back to mind. I still desire her. I don't know if I'll be able to stay away from her. I just hope I can somehow make amends.

When Sophie comes home with my mother, she makes her entrance carrying a bunch of books.

“Did you raid grandma's library?” I ask, raising an eyebrow, still lying on the couch.

“Leave her alone, at least someone in the family reads,” my mother needles me.

She knows I don't like reading, and so do my brothers. For a bookstore owner, being attached to reading is like sacrilege.

I reluctantly get up. I catch my daughter, lift her up, and tease her, holding her in my arms. She squirms, laughs loudly, and drops all the books to the floor. My eye catches a cookbook by Kate. On the cover is her, with a radiant smile, the smile that drives me crazy every time it appears on her face.

“What are you going to do with that?” I ask, picking up the cookbook.

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