The Christmas Exchange: An MFM Holiday Romance by Cali Melle

Author:Cali Melle [Melle, Cali]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2023-11-26T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER ELEVEN

The three of us were seated at one of the back tables together. It was a round table, with Julian and Miles on either side of me. We all ordered some cocktails and I was grateful for that. I needed something to loosen me up a bit since the massage wasn’t seeming to have any lasting effects. It was like it never even happened earlier today. Something about having both of them at such close proximity now made the room feel like it was closing in on me.

I couldn’t think straight.

“I feel like I owe you an apology, Raegan,” Miles said softly as he turned to face me. I caught Julian’s hard gaze as he stared at his best friend, but there was also a hint of curiosity in his features. “We kind of sprung this all on you and I feel like I crossed a line I shouldn’t have.”

I looked back and forth between them. “What do you mean?”

Julian stayed silent.

“I can’t help but feel like this has made you uncomfortable.”

Shit. I swallowed roughly. I was convinced I was the only one who felt it, but I wasn’t. “I don’t know how I’m supposed to act around either of you,” I admitted. “That’s why I feel uncomfortable. Not because of either of you, but of my own fears.”

Julian studied me. “What are you afraid of, sweetheart?”

This was not how dinner was supposed to go. This wasn’t supposed to be me dumping my feelings on the table for the two of them to analyze.

“Losing both of you.”

Miles leaned across the table. “So, you’re not uncomfortable because of what we’ve said or proposed? Not because either of us kissed you or admitted we both want you.”

I would never call Miles insecure, but his moment of vulnerability was tugging at the strings of my heart. This whole time I was worried about my own fears and feelings of the situation. I never once paused to think about how either of them were feeling or what they might be thinking.

I shook my head at him. “No, that’s not it at all. I mean, everything that has happened has changed things between us all, which is what makes me uncomfortable. I don’t know how to act or what I’m supposed to say. I’m afraid to act because, what happens if this all blows up in our faces?”

“Would you like to pretend none of this ever happened?”

My gaze landed on Julian’s as his voice trailed off. “No. I wouldn’t.”

“Just be yourself, Raegan. You don’t have to be anyone different. You don’t have to act any differently.” He paused for a moment, taking a sip of his bourbon before setting it down on the table. “Sure, it changes things, but it can be a good thing.”

“You’re not worried about anything?”

Julian’s eyes were fixed on mine. “Why would I be? Life is constantly shifting, sweetheart. We just have to shift with it.”

“I suppose you’re right,” I agreed with him after mulling over his words for a few moments.

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