The Babysitter's Secret: An utterly addictive psychological thriller packed with unexpected twists (Totally compelling standalone psychological thrillers by Casey Kelleher) by Casey Kelleher

Author:Casey Kelleher [Kelleher, Casey]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781837900756
Publisher: Bookouture
Published: 2023-05-23T16:00:00+00:00

27

EMILY

I can read. For the first time in what feels like forever I can actually concentrate on reading almost an entire book, cover to cover. I’ve managed to miss three doses of my meds now without Louise noticing me spitting out my tablets. That’s almost a whole day and night without them. The paralysing concoction is finally out of my system.

I know this, because the crying girl is back with a vengeance.

Her loud cries radiating through the walls.

When I first heard her, I had actually laughed out loud. A proper belly laugh. Partly relieved in a way, that I was no longer numb to my surroundings, that despite the constant torment she brings me, she is the indisputable sign that I am back in control of my mind and my body. Even though she is loud, somehow, I can think more clearly now that I am back in control of myself.

I have been thinking a lot today. About how if I can keep spitting my meds out, unnoticed. How if I just try and block the girl out completely, if I just pretend with everything that I have inside of me that I can’t hear her, even when I’m here all by myself, I might just be able to do this. To prove to Louise and the doctor that despite their concerns, I am really better.

That I do deserve to be here.

They can’t send me back to the unit if I’m not causing any drama, can they?

I can’t go back there. Back to where the nurses press their face against your bedroom window at fifteen-minute intervals, so you never feel as if you have any privacy. Back to where there are always a pair of beady eyes watching you.

It’s noisier there too. Even without the girl crying. The constant loud shrill of alarms going off. Numerous residents punching and hitting at their doors in desperation to be let out. The constant awful thud of the woman opposite my room as she repeatedly smacks her head off the wall.

No. I won’t go back there.

Pulling my blanket back, I hold my thumb inside the pages of the book that I am reading, so that I don’t lose my place, and make my way to the kitchen to boil the kettle. I have at least another hour until Louise or Charlotte come. I pray that it will be Charlotte this time, because if it is her, I won’t have to pretend that I’m not taking my meds. She already knows why I don’t want to take them.

If Louise comes, she’ll see straight away. She’ll know that I am functioning, when I should be anything but. I’ll have to act my innocence out, get back into bed and pretend that I’m still enslaved to the medication. Looking disorientated when she wakes me and pretend that I haven’t been reading at all.

The reading would be a giveaway. She’ll know I don’t have that amount of concentration. Is that why she left the books? To taunt me with them.

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