No More Secrets, Alec Brock (Alec Brock Series Book 3) by Larissa Lopes

Author:Larissa Lopes [Lopes, Larissa]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9782957611560
Publisher: Larissa Lopes
Published: 2022-03-10T05:00:00+00:00

Seventeen

Alec

It’s just a bad anxiety day. I inhaled a slow, deep breath, watching the crew prep the stage for soundcheck.

I liked to come up to the stands alone whenever anxiety knocked me out like this. I always chose one of the highest seats, the farthest ones from the stage, and I pictured myself down there, singing to the person sitting here.

It made me feel less overwhelmed, the reminder that this wasn’t about me. Even if it looked like it—because it was my name in lights out there—I knew nobody listened to my music because of me, Alec. They listened to it because of how it made them feel—happy, stronger, relaxed, understood. The person on this seat tonight wouldn’t come to the arena to see Alec Brock perform. What they really wanted was to get a break from their lives. To have a good time and forget whatever “wave” they were going through at home.

That was the reason they liked me—my songs helped them get out of their own heads. And I played for that exact reason too. I needed music just as much as they did.

Some nights it was hard for me to disconnect from my “waves” when I got up on stage. But by the end of the show, I’d always managed to block out everything that hurt me. I forgot all the fear, the worries, the pain—all that was left in me was music. My love and gratitude for music. And the only thing that mattered to me was to sing loudly enough to share this feeling with the person sitting right here.

I let my head fall back on the chair, wishing it was showtime already. I needed to go to that place right now! This wait for Linda to arrive was killing me.

I took another deep breath, held it in for a second, then let go with my eyes closed. I was trying my best to support her friendship with my brother. Last night when Linda showed me Ben’s note, I wasn’t jealous at all. I was actually grateful that he seemed to be moving on and that she was willing to help him get back on his feet.

But now that they were alone together, it was hard not to be afraid. For the past few hours, all I could think about was that this “spending time as friends” would end with them falling for each other again.

I pulled my earbuds out of my pocket and found my favorite playlist on my iPod. She’ll be here soon. Everything will be all right.

You can’t be sure of that, another voice said in my head. She can change her mind at any time. You’ll never be able to trust her around him.

I turned up the volume to drown out my own thoughts.

That was the hardest part of being in a relationship, right there! When you realize the person you voluntarily gave your heart to owes you nothing. They can change their minds and walk away in the blink of an eye.

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