Inertia (Dazed #2) by C. M. Radcliff

Author:C. M. Radcliff [Radcliff, C. M.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B09L8QXH6G
Goodreads: 59589631
Publisher: #PrB.rating#4.5
Published: 2022-02-02T00:00:00+00:00

“How’s shit going, man?” Courtland asks as we pull away from the apartment building. He turns down the music and glances in my direction.

I shrug. “I don’t know, Court. Ainsley isn’t doing well at all and I’m at a loss for what to do for her.”

“I’m sure all of the drugs she’s on haven’t been helping at all.”

“I know,” I sigh. “But who are we to even judge? Are we really even any better than her at this point? I mean, look at us. We’re on our way to go make drops right now. We’re part of the fucking problem.”

Courtland glances over at me as he stops at a red light. “Yeah, but do you see either of us ever holding down legit jobs? I mean, let’s be real, bro. This is the only life that we know and yeah, even though we run the risks with it being illegal, you can’t beat the money that we’re making.”

I nod in agreement, but I can’t help but disagree with him. I don’t disagree with the money and the life that we were both born into. It’s all that we realistically know. But seeing someone who’s become a full-blown addict like Ainsley shows me how much we’re contributing to that. Not just to her but to other people who are addicts. None of them really matter to me except her though.

“I just can’t help but feel like I’m enabling her. I know that it’s a little different because I do it with her, but I don’t need it like she does. She can’t live without that shit right now. It’s fucking poison and it’s slowly killing her.”

It’s Courtland’s turn to nod in agreement. “Yeah, but I think it’s deeper than we both know. She’s got some dark shit going on in her mind and until she addresses that, she’ll never get off the smack. You and I both know that.”

“That’s where I’m fucking stuck.” I pause, inhaling deeply through my nose, feeling the dread in the pit of my stomach. “She needs help and I can’t give her that help.”

“You know what you need to do, bro.” Courtland’s voice is low and sorrowful as he presses on the gas, driving us to our first stop. “It sucks, I know that it does, and it isn’t an easy decision to make, but you’re the only one who can make it. You gotta do what’s gonna be best for her. Ainsley wasn’t cut from the same cloth as us. There’s so much more that life can offer her and it’s up to you to make that decision for her since she can’t make it herself.”

“I know,” I whisper, swallowing hard over the emotion as I glance out the window. “Fuck, I know.”

Courtland pulls the car off the street, near the corner where a few of his boys stand. “Let’s get this shit over with and we’ll figure it out. What if I grab Amethyst and we come chill later? Maybe that will help lift her spirits.

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