Free Radicals by Lila Riesen
Author:Lila Riesen [Riesen, Lila]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Penguin Young Readers Group
Published: 2023-03-21T00:00:00+00:00
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On Tuesday, Iâm the only customer at Fro-Yo Emporium. Britâs been promoted to manager, and sheâs sent her fifteen-year-old coworker home early. His mom came ten minutes ago.
I was hoping for more hubbub in here. More distractions.
My hands are sweaty and my keys spike me through my sweatpants. This Ghostingâs weapon of choice.
âI think he likes you,â says Brit, wiping the counter. Iâve told her about hanging with Jalen. I leave out the dad stuff.
Britâs tone bears caution. Maybe itâs the think part. If she knew he liked me, sheâd say: âHe likes you.â
âAnd his middle name is Noah, isnât thatââ
âSo hot, yes. Youâve told me four times already.â
âSorry.â Iâve already updated his contact card to read Jalen Noah Thomas.
I text him. Doing anything fun over break? He texts back immediately. Throttle Therapy with Pops tmrw.
Jalen normally skips the half day before Thanksgiving break. Itâs an unspoken movie day at school anyway.
I almost regurgitate Jalenâs dirt-biking plans to Brit till she says: âJust . . . be careful.â
âWhy?â Iâm already on my second cup of anxiety fro-yo. Did Itâs poison find her ears? The ball of my foot bounces and I glance from the clockâ8:23 p.m.âto the parking lot.
âThe way he looks at you.â
âHuh?â
âLike . . . that one time you gave him gum and he hugged you, he looked straight at Raf.â
âSo?â
âIt was a weird look.â
I thought the hug felt a bit long, but I wasnât complaining.
âYou do study people, donât you?â
She takes a gummy worm from the pile and rips it in half with her teeth. âYes.â She smiles.
âSo,â I say, crunching an M&M, âwhat about you?â I like the distraction of talking.
âAs you know,â she says, âI liked Fallon.â
Oh yes. Fallon and his Black Star Canyon blunder.
âAnd before you say why, itâs likeâugh, I know. I guess Iâm drawn to the wrong guys. But itâs also kinda . . . my fault.â
âYou canât be blaming yourselfââ
She waves her hand like thatâs not it. Takes in breath like she wants to speak. Stops. Then says, âYou know, discrimination against the trans community is terrible, but no one talks about theâlikeâbehind-closed-doors things. Like surgery costs or side effects of hormone therapy. I justâhuh.â She laughs. âI have no sex drive, Mafi. None. Zilch. On the one hand, feminizing hormone therapy makes me feel amazing, like Iâm not so disgusted by my body, but I miss my sexualness. I miss iiiiit. Sorry if thatâs TMI.â
âUm, not TMI. And thatâs a terrible side effect.â I donât have that problem. Everything about Jalen, from the love in his voice when he talks about his dad, to his veiny arms, to his passion for ball, to that half smile . . . it gets me.
Kateâs voice sticks in the back of my head: Reputations stick. Donât be Hook-Up Material.
âIn sex ed,â Brit goes on, âwhen they talk about those pesky teenage hormones, I want to sayâPlease! For the love of god! Throw some my way! Anyway. Iâll take this over waking up every morning pre-transition in agony, never feeling like the real me.
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