Finding Ruby Starling by Karen Rivers

Author:Karen Rivers
Language: eng
Format: mobi
Publisher: Scholastic Inc.
Published: 2014-10-16T21:00:00+00:00

RUBY,

STOP!

You can’t be sorry!

I mean, you can! Obviously! You can do whatever you want!

But it’s OK. You don’t have to say it.

I just want US to be normal. I don’t want it to be all you saying sorry and me saying it’s OK, and you saying sorry and me saying it’s OK, and you saying sorry and me saying it’s OK. It isn’t OK, but it isn’t for you to be sorry about. It’s not your fault. YOU WERE A BABY! It’s sort of your mom’s fault and I have to figure out, in my head, how to forgive her for that. But I’m not mad at you.

Please write me again, but about something else other than your sorry-ness, such as a list of seven things you did today or five worst foods or Things You Want To Do Before You Die or anything. Just not SORRY. Do not be sorry.

I was thinking, if we’d been kids together, you’d know all the weird stuff about me, like I sometimes tied my shoelaces to my desk so I couldn’t float away during class and/or it would make it harder for kidnappers to snatch me. And I’d know that you liked … something. Whatever you liked! We need to know these things! So maybe if we can’t answer the questions of WHY HOW WHAT and WHEN your mom did what she did, we can talk. Just talk. About random stuff. About everything. About anything.

I’m going to start.

How’s the weather? I don’t care about the weather so much, but maybe a little, because we are having a heat wave and my sweaty legs have glued me to this chair that I’m sitting on, and when I stand up, I’ll have that weird sticky-ripping feeling when I try to peel my skin from the plastic. Also, my mom might be losing her job. I just stuck that there at the end so I don’t have to talk about it. (She works super hard! It’s so unfair! But I am in the moment! Stuck to the chair! Sweaty! Typing!) Dad says the change in the weather is probably good because people will start to figure out that global warming sucks and they will stop buying such giant cars. Dad thinks SUVs are the worst thing ever invented by mankind and represent all that is wrong with the world. Well, SUVs and the Internet. He might be right! Except not about the Internet, which is basically my favorite thing in the world. And I sort of wonder about him thinking about the repercussions of stuff like big vehicles if he’s being Buddhist and staying in the moment. Because hey, life is totes suffering, and maybe the suffering comes in the form of large ugly cars and global warming and having your skin stuck horribly to the chair you are sitting on.

But that’s not even what I want to talk about! I mostly want to know if we’re the same, like in all the stuff I read about twins online, where they are both fans of wasabi and enjoy handstands and the electric guitar.

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