Collide by Crea Reitan

Author:Crea Reitan [Reitan, Crea]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: dragon fire fantasy
Published: 2024-09-12T00:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 20

HANSLEY

Jessica came home yesterday. I spent the entire ten days she wasn’t here building my resolve to tell her the truth. To admit what I’ve been doing.

Yet, looking at the deep sadness in her eyes makes my stomach roll and I chicken out.

That doesn’t mean home isn’t just awkward. It’s also tense because I’m being a dick. I don’t mean to be, but the irritation and frustration I keep having toward myself is manifesting in stupid ways. Like when I walked into the kitchen this afternoon and found a damp kitchen cloth on the butcher block.

I made a much bigger deal about it than was warranted. Honestly, I should have just tossed it in the laundry instead of reminding Jessica that keeping something wet on the wood will ruin it in time. She says she was cleaning and had walked away for only a minute to change the laundry or something.

Do you think I could let it go? Fuck, no. I continued to get on her back until she burst into tears.

And since I have zero balls, instead of doing the right thing and apologizing, I left. I got on my bike and took off like the chicken shit I am.

I’ve been driving around for the past hour now. No destination in mind. Just driving. I drive past Lemon’s because I can’t help myself. Things have been weird there too, which is entirely my fault. I’ve been avoiding him as much as I have my own house.

The thing is, I need to get into a better place. Tomorrow is our first game. I owe it to my team to be there 100%. Which means I need to grow a fucking pair and face my wife. There needs to be some peace in this house, and the only way that’s going to happen is if I fucking tell her what a piece of shit I am.

While I know this is sending mixed signals, I stop at the florist and purchase the biggest fucking bouquet I can safely get home on my bike. Now that I have flowers I’ll ruin if I take them for a joy ride, I have no choice but to go home.

Jessica is in the kitchen still. I set the flowers on the counter in front of her. She looks at them, wiping her eyes, and tries to smile.

“We need to talk,” I say.

She nods, sniffing quietly.

“You haven’t done a thing wrong, Jess. I’ve done everything wrong.”

“But… why?” she whispers.

“I wish I had an answer to that.” Then I take a deep breath and will the words to come out. “I’ve… I’ve been having an affair.”

She sucks in a breath as fresh tears trail down her cheeks. I force myself to watch them as I try to catch my breath.

“I wish I could tell you it was… I don’t know, an emotional connection? A one-time thing? I don’t know. I wish I had more answers for you, but I don’t.”

“What does that mean?” she asks, voice shaking.

“I’ve been messing around with a man at school who’s been a dick since the moment I met him.

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