Carol Emshwiller by Boys
Author:Boys
Language: eng
Format: mobi, epub
Published: 2012-02-10T22:53:50+00:00
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In the morning boys climb to the roofs again to see whatâs up. They describe women lying under shields all along the walls and they can see some of the enemy lying dead away from the walls. I need to climb up and see for myself. Besides itâs good for the boys to see me taking the same chances they do.
I send the boys off and I take their place. I look down on the women along the wall. I see several rifles pointed at me. I stand like a hero. I dare them to shoot. I take all the time I want. I see wall sections less crowded with women. I take out my notebook (no leader is ever without one) and draw a diagram. I take my time until I have the whole wall mapped out.
I could take out my pistol and threaten them. I could shoot one but it wouldnât be very manly to take advantage of my high point. Were they men Iâd do it. But then they do the unmanly thing. They shoot me. My leg. My good leg. I go down, flat on the roof. At first I feel nothing but the shock ⦠as if Iâd been hit with a hammer. All I know is I canât stand up. Then I see blood.
Though theyâre on the wall, theyâre lower. They canât see me as long as I keep down. I crawl to the edge where boys help me. They carry me back to Unaâs bed. I feel Iâm about to pass out or throw up and I become aware that Iâve soiled myself. I donât want the boys to see. Iâve always been a source of strength and inspiration in spite of or because of my size.
One of those boys is Hob, come to help me, my arm across his shoulders. I lean in pain but keep my groans to myself.
âSir? Colonel?â
âIâm fine. Will be. Go.â
I wish I could ask him if he really is my son. They say sometimes the women know and tell the boys.
âDonât you want us to.⦠â
âNo. Go. Now. And shut the door.â
They leave just in time. I throw up over the side of the bed. I lie backâUnaâs pillow all sweated up not to mention what Iâve done to her quilt.
Una can make potions for pain. I wish I knew which, of the herbs hanging from her ceiling, might help me. But Iâd not be able to reach them anyway.
I lie, half conscious, for I donât know how long. Every time I sit up to examine my leg, I feel nausea again and have to lie back. I wonder if Iâll ever be able to lead a charge or a raid for boys or a copulation day. And I always thought, when I became a general (and lately I felt sure Iâd be one) maybe Iâd find out what weâre fighting forâbeyond, that is, the usual rhetoric we use to make ourselves feel superior.
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