Redwood Rebels: The Complete Series by Rachel Leigh

Author:Rachel Leigh [Leigh, Rachel]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2021-11-14T00:00:00+00:00

It's the coldest day of the year, so far, which doesn't say a lot, considering it's the first week in January. Willa is sitting in the front seat of my car—in the dark, at a cemetery—with the heat on full blast.

I walk through the maze of stones like I know exactly where to go, even though it's been five years since I've even been here. Somehow, though, I end up right in front of Colby's gravesite.

Slouching down, I don't say anything for at least five minutes. I just stare straight ahead reading the engraved words on his headstone. Beloved son and brother. Mustering up the courage, I try to talk to him. Although, it feels weird at first. "Hey, Colby. How ya doing?"

Stupid. How do you think he's doing? He's dead. I drop down on my ass and try again. "I'm sorry I haven't been here to see you in a while. Things have been busy."

It's a lie and he knows it. Fuck it, it’s time to be honest. "Look, I know that I sucked as a brother. I was always so mean to you. Never let you hang out with me and my friends. Even locked you in a closet once. Ok. Twice. The truth is, I didn't know how to be a brother. I didn't know how to be much of anything but a selfish spoiled asshole. I was just a kid, too."

Looking down at my hands at the PlayStation controller I brought, regret floods through me. I set it down in front of his stone and begin picking at the grass at my side, pulling piece by piece and dropping them back down. "I'm sorry, Colby. You didn't deserve any of that. You loved me. You looked up to me and I just pushed you away any time you came close to me." I choke down the lump in my throat. "The thing is, I didn't know how to love, so even if I did love you, I didn't know what it felt like. I've always thought that because I didn't feel it while you were here that it meant I never loved you at all. The truth is, I do love you, Colby. I'm just now learning that love isn't always black and white. There are times you think you hate someone you love, but you don't really hate them, you're just angry. That love is still there; it's just masked by other emotions. So yeah, I love you little brother and I'm sorry it took me so long to tell you that."

I go to push myself off the grass, but I stop myself and get on my knees. "You're gonna be an uncle. I'm having a little girl." The wind picks up and I laugh. "Yeah, I know. Me? A dad to a little girl. Shit man, I'm gonna need some guidance on this one or I might end up burning this whole town down just to get rid of the asshole teenager boys." I hear the car door shut, so I wrap things up.

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