Forget Your Morals: A Forbidden Secret Romance by Sarah Blue

Author:Sarah Blue [Blue, Sarah]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2024-06-23T00:00:00+00:00

19

CATHARSIS

I don’t know how I manage to get through the morning at work. All I can think about are Lincoln’s soft eyes telling me he chooses me.

That’s all I’ve ever wanted, to be someone’s choice and priority, yet he’s the one person I can’t have. It would ruin everything. Men don’t stick around long enough once they truly get to know me.

Lincoln wants me now because it’s exciting and new, but eventually he would leave. I’d be left broken hearted with no family, and then who would I be.

I do my best to try and keep a pep in my step and not let my happy-go-lucky facade break as I head to Jessa’s cubicle.

“Hey, got some time to grab lunch?” I ask.

“Sure,” she says with a smile, grabbing her purse and following me outside. I’m not sure how to fill the silence, because I think if she asks me what’s wrong, I might just fall apart. “Penny, are you okay?”

I blink at her, and as I suspected, the floodgates burst open as I cry into my hand. Jessa drags me out of the food truck line and we sit at one of the wooden picnic tables. She rubs my back in a soothing manner as I try to get my shit together. “This is so fucking stupid. I can’t believe I’m just breaking down like this.” I wipe my eyes, trying to collect myself while Jessa keeps rubbing my back assuredly.

“We can talk about it if you want, or if you just want to sit here. Whatever you need,” Jessa says, and I give her what I’m sure is a pathetic smile.

“Have you ever loved someone you couldn’t have?” It’s a broad thing to say. I’m not romantically in love with Lincoln, but I know I could be. There’s already a love for him in my heart, but deep down, I know it could be devastating.

She shakes her head, but doesn’t stop rubbing my back.

“Why can’t you be with them?” she asks. Probably wondering why I’ve never brought up my dating life before.

“Because it’s so stupidly complicated I can’t even get into it.” I scoff. The last thing I need is her realizing how fucked up I am and that she should run far, far away.

“But you both want to be together?” she asks and I nod my head. “Then I’m sure you can figure out a way to make it work.”

God, I wish it was that easy. I wish I could give into him and just see what life could be like between us.

I start crying again, and Jessa, being the amazing friend she is, doesn’t stop with the soothing back rubs. When I’m finally done sobbing like an asshole, she wraps her arms around me and squeezes me into an affectionate hug that I desperately needed.

How I got so lucky with her entering my life when she did, I’m not sure. But I’m not letting her go.

“I’m so sorry for ruining lunch.”

“Hey, you didn’t ruin anything,” Jessa says, pulling back and rubbing my arms.

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