The Big Summer by Jamie B. Laurie

Author:Jamie B. Laurie [Laurie, Jamie B.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781532029929
Publisher: iUniverse
Published: 2018-07-26T04:00:00+00:00

Chapter 14

Internet Pedophiles Love Me

It had been three weeks since my horrible, psychotic break/embarrassing emotional meltdown. I still wasn’t entirely sure what had happened to cause it; I just didn’t know why all of my emotions had whirled together into a dangerously powerful Molotov cocktail in my head.

But I had recovered, the knife scars on my heart buried under thick layers of Band-Aids, hidden away but always a dull throb. Yes, I still had feelings for Daniel. Yes, I was still lonely. Yes, I hated Katie Applegate. But would I let all those things ruin my summer? Well, probably. Though I would not go down without a fight.

In my first three weeks as a Seaside City-ite—Seasidian?—the List was becoming decorated with satisfying checkmarks. I was perfectly on schedule and making good time, and I was fairly certain that I would fulfill all my tasks …

Though I wondered if it would be worth it, or if in fact it could be. Because I would not find love; of that, I was thoroughly convinced. And that dull ache that had remained mostly dormant until the night of Funland would certainly plague me for the rest of my life.

Hannah wasn’t much help in the love department. Though she was totally fine with my sexuality (“I’m cool with it,” she insisted once. “It’s just that boys can be so … ugh sometimes, you know?”), she was no more of an expert in the gay scene than I was. She suggested one time that we go into the big city and find a gay bar or nightclub. I managed to talk some sense into her and said that even if we were of age, those places were surely overrun with big and scary (and hairy) bears. When she asked me what exactly a bear was, and I couldn’t really put my minimal knowledge on the subject into words, we found ourselves online. And let’s just say I wasn’t planning on becoming a “cub” any time soon.

Despite all her quirks (and she had a great deal of them, I promise), Hannah and I had truly become best friends. I was having fun all the time with her, which was something new for me. Being together made even spending the day at Monster Manor fun. I enjoyed the time we spent walking the boardwalk and pacing the beach, picking out the guys we thought were cute/hot/beautiful/gorgeous, and giggling over the shared eye candy. Quickly, I discovered that Hannah had a definite type: she went for the hunky jocks, the more muscle-bound the better.

Hannah and I talked about everything together: our worries and secrets and the dumb gossip we found out about. The only thing I kept to myself was my feelings for her brother … because … well, that was private. Even from her.

Daniel and I, it was safe to say, were friends. Just friends. And I told myself I was okay with that. We hung out, very seldom on our own, and that was that. End of story.

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