Love Somebody by Rachel Roasek

Author:Rachel Roasek
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Farrar, Straus and Giroux (BYR)

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SAM

Sometimes, trying to be the best at everything gets lonely.

Christian texted me earlier today asking to hang out, since he doesn’t have any plans with Ros, and Monty was busy, but I’ve got lots of things to do that I’ve been putting off ever since we started Operation Date Ros. There’s a chemistry project I have to turn in, a paper due for English, and plenty more random pieces of schoolwork and college-application padding I’ve been neglecting. What once was a few small, manageable jobs has turned into a mountain of work, and I’m not leaving my room until I get it all finished.

I’ve been at it for almost four hours now, watching a perfectly good Saturday pass by from my bedroom window, crawling my way through half a dozen assignments that should have taken a few minutes each. My head isn’t in the game today. I could be anywhere else, doing anything else right now. I could have taken Christian up on his offer to hang out. I could be grabbing coffee or going out somewhere with Aria. A bunch of other cool people from drama club have offered to hang out, and people from my other classes. Casey’s free, right? They’re on the volleyball team, and they seem pretty cool. I have their number. Or what about André? He’s cute, and I’m pretty sure he likes me. Might be fun to give him a try.

Ugh. The thought of trying to talk to anyone else right now makes me want to crawl out of my skin. What a waste of time. My gaze drifts to the map of Loredo on my wall, and my heart starts to beat a little faster. It’s supposed to motivate me to do better, but today, it’s just making things worse.

You can’t end up there.

My phone buzzes where I left it facedown on my bedside table. I walk over and pick it up, hopeful for the smallest second that it might be Ros, but it isn’t. Just another notification from a dating app. Staring at it, I realize I haven’t played around with my favorite hobby in almost a month. I was so focused on other things, it completely slipped my mind. Maybe that’s why I’ve been so off lately.

I decide to take a break from my work and flop down on my bed, phone held up above my face. I need to get back into my old routine, and I’ll be back to normal in no time. I open the dating app and swipe through to my profile, trying to remember who I’m pretending to be at the moment. Turns out, I didn’t stray too far from the beaten path with this one, because according to the bio I wrote weeks ago, my name is “Cary,” and all I want out of life is to be a famous actress. The photo I used is a blandly pretty, dime-a-dozen white girl with a blinding smile. According to my notifications, Cary’s got more than ninety potential matches.

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