Justin's Season by S.M. Sawyer

Author:S.M. Sawyer
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: gay, lgbt, inspirational, aids, baseball
Publisher: NineStar Press

Chapter Twenty-Four

Justin lay beside Matt who was still sleeping, and thought of the days when he had hurried to get ready so that he could meet him on time at IHOP. Now he was lying next to him in Matt’s apartment, sharing a queen-sized bed. They had both finished their respective shifts and decided to meet here after work, made easier by Justin having his own car. He now understood about lovemaking, and that his night with Lili didn’t compare to how he felt with Matt when they were together and exploring each other in a way that he couldn’t have imagined a scant week before. He was scared at first, but Matt was seasoned and patient, and would not force anything until Justin was ready to accept.

Matt stirred and opened his eyes. He looked directly at Justin after gaining his bearings from a restful sleep. “Good afternoon, handsome man,” said Matt. “You do know you’re very special to me, don’t you?”

“Yes, I do…as you are to me.”

“I still can’t believe it,” said Matt, lying on his side. “I was just looking to make a friend with someone I remembered from tenth grade. The whole idea that you could be a lover never crossed my mind. I had no idea it would lead to this…with you here next to me.”

“I know. I finally feel like I’ve been set free,” said Justin, reaching over to hold Matt’s hand. “I remember the night at the warehouse, and I was jealous of those on the dance floor because they felt secure in their own skin…and it’s taken me twelve years of burying stuff and one month of a new opening to get there. I must be a slow study or something. What was your journey like once you knew?”

“Ouch…That’s what it was. Nothing pleasant to recount. A father who cut me off once he was onto me, and a mother who supported me rather than stay with him for doing that to their only son.”

“They divorced over you? You never said that before.”

“Yes. Mom told him if his family didn’t include me, then hers would. It really threw him for a loop. He thought I was out to embarrass him in front of his troops. But still, it was easier to come out in Europe back then…not so much in the closet like here. Dad still doesn’t get it, and I accept that. Of course, therapy helped, and Mom’s been wonderful. She’s always been there for me.”

“If my mom and dad were alive, this would’ve been as hard for them as what I put them through,” said Justin. “They were hardcore Catholics, and I was raised to think it was vile…a sin to all that was holy. But this feels right…and I believe my parents’ souls are okay with it. They’re not looking at it through human eyes anymore.”

“That makes sense, but it’s still something I keep to myself. Most still have a hard time with it,” said Matt. “So you listen politely when people talk and discreetly turn away when someone tells a ‘faggot’ joke.

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