All the White Spaces by Ally Wilkes
Author:Ally Wilkes
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Atria/Emily Bestler Books
Published: 2022-03-29T00:00:00+00:00
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âSunset and evening star.â The growl in Randallâs voice had transformed to something somber. âAnd one clear call for me.â
There was no point holding the service outside: there was no grave. As soon as nautical twilight had revealed the horizon, search parties were sent out, but no bodies had been found. Staunton said Duncan couldnât possibly still be alive. âHe shouldnât have been able to get out of bed,â he kept saying, restlessly smoothing down his whiskers. âHe was too weakââ
Bedloe had been cheerful on the ship, quieter and quieter with its loss, with the death of his bunkmates Smith and Benham, with the news that the Germans had disappeared, with the sea freezing over, until he barely spoke at all. Heâd been no Richard Boyd: he wouldnât have been able to carry Duncan, even in his reduced state. They might have crawled, on hands and knees, into the night.
With all of us gatheredâthe broken windows boarded upâthe common room was stuffy, oppressive. I clenched my fists, fingernails biting into my sweaty palms. Something had summoned Duncan from the huts. Something so inexorableâso impossible to refuseâthat heâd disappeared despite the pain, his injuries, the restraints. The dark. I drew an unsteady breath.
âTwilight and evening bell, and after that the dark.â
Randall didnât care much for the Bible, was reading from a small scuffed poetry book. Men stood side by side, hands clasped, heads down. The chess set on the long table had taken on a horrible gravity: in all the chaos of the storm and that long confused night, shouting, hammering, crates dragged inside, a search party for the fuel cansâit hadnât been moved. It sat smugly, undisturbed. I wanted to upend it, scatter the pieces. But I knew I wouldnât.
After that the dark. Two more weeks before the austral winter set in, and we would live in perpetual night. No one would dare suggest we leaveânot now. There was no other place to go. The stokers had accosted me, demanding to know why the shutters were open. âTheyâre always closed after dark,â Ellis had kept repeating. âAlways. You never know whatâs out there.â Heâd been desperate for an answer. I had none, and it terrified me beyond reason.
Nicholls had led search parties all day. Theyâd gone as far as the cliffs, to see if clothing, the signs of a fall, told a story we couldâGod willingâone day take to Duncanâs relatives. But the stokers were right: even Nicholls didnât know what was out there. Unbidden, horrible, the image of Francis by the windbreakâturned away, looking down, clearly expecting me to followâjostled its way into my head. I pressed my fists tighter, begged it to go away. To leave me in peace.
Randall finished the poem, said a few words about Duncanâs reliability, his sharp sense of humor, their first meeting in a Sydney dockyard. Macready told an anecdote from the lower decks, met with laughter. âAnd as for Bedloeââ
âThank you, Robert,â Randall said.
Randall refused to believe Bedloe was past rescuing; the fruitless search parties would continue.
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