A Fantasy Too Far? End Game: A loving hotwife story by Peter G Johnson

Author:Peter G Johnson [Johnson, Peter G]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2022-05-15T22:00:00+00:00

Chapter 13

Not surprisingly, I was the first one up and around the house the next day. For early October it was a surprisingly bright and sunny morning and so I retired to the back deck with a light breakfast, a hot coffee and a whole head of thinking to do.

I was pretty sure Jess wouldn’t be up anytime soon – not after the evening she’d enjoyed or endured. Still not quite sure which way I should look at what had happened last night. And in my stressed and the ‘world on my shoulders’ state, I was up a good couple of hours before I reckoned Cass would be hunting down breakfast.

Compared to me, she had little invested in the situation and no life-changing decisions to make. So she was probably dreaming whatever kind of dreams that people of her age and set of interests dreamed. Not something that I could either guess or likely understand or enjoy.

So I sat back, enjoyed the aroma of the piping hot coffee and temporarily lost myself in the soothing effects of the morning’s bird song and the pretty little wisps of steam rising from my cup.

I had some big decisions to make. Some really big decisions. I knew that, however unpalatable, much of what Cass had said last night was spot on and true. I knew I needed a long talk with Jess before I decided anything definitive. I could see the outward signs of how she was changing and what she was searching for. But life and people are complicated. Multi-layered. With multiple agendas and interests. Agendas and interests which are often mutually exclusive and fill them with conflicted feelings and force them to choose between decisions that prioritize some needs and desires over others.

Even if I didn’t know which way I’d jump at the end of today’s discussions – I needed Jess’s inputs and perspectives for that – one thing I did know was that I couldn’t cage Jess. However much I might be afraid (and ignoring my weird sense of excitement too), I knew she was at some kind of crossroads and we needed to recognize this and deal with it.

We’d spent twenty plus years together. A couple who’d fallen in love and who’d then feathered a nest and raised a couple of baby chicks. Until they’d bloomed into smart, confident and beautiful young women who were now halfway through the process of flying the nest. Not yet fully formed with no need for their parents, but certainly no longer needing us in their day-to-day lives.

In parallel with this obvious change, I thought about how Jess and I felt about each other, totally confident that we still loved each other deeply. Loved each other more than when we’d first met, dated and got engaged. The raw, nerve-jangling excitement had gradually morphed into something deeper and more substantial. Two people who couldn’t imagine life without each other.

Was I kidding myself? Telling myself things that I wanted to hear to make myself feel better and less worried?

No.

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