Such Exquisite Calamity by Sydnie Beaupré

Author:Sydnie Beaupré [Beaupré, Sydnie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-05-17T05:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER NINE

CHAPTER NINE

Cayden

In the few weeks since Spencer visited my aunt Elise’s for the first time, Spencer’s managed to coax me into spending more time with her outside of school. I even sit at her friends’ lunch table now, although that took a lot of prompting from Spencer, plus Ana who she’d enlisted to help convince me.

Admittedly, it feels good to be back with Darren and Josh, who found solace in Spencer’s group when I ditched school and totally ghosted them – not counting that one time where I needed to get out, and Darren had my back. I barely spoke to him that night, listening to the loud music blaring from the speakers, drowning out my thoughts. It was the kind of music Ana digs.

Speaking of, Ana and I have grown closer. The first day I sat at their lunch table, she smiled at me and high-fived Spencer, saying, “Finally!” and I realized then that people really did want me to join them.

Two days later, she waited for me outside of my French class and started to walk alongside me, saying, “You and Spence have always had this weird ‘I love you, but I can’t have you’ vibe going on, and of course there’s the whole otherness y’all have going on.”

“Ana, not this again,” I muttered. “It’s not that we can’t have each other…”

She laughed. “It’s because you’re scared that you’ll ruin it, I know.”

I flinched reflexively.

“Hey, calm down. Smiling suits you, Evander. People are less scared of you now that you’ve been hanging around with us, acting like a person. I’m not gonna bite.”

I blinked, too shocked to stifle my reaction. “Whoa, wait, what? I didn’t know that people were less afraid.” I admit. “It’s really because I’ve been smiling more? But people have always been wary of me. I mean, know that I’m…not normal. But neither is Spencer. People walk up to us all the time outside of school, talking about how we’re ‘those two freaks’ or ‘half-bloods’. I always worry about how it would go if we get together. I think my aunt and her think I haven’t thought about what that all means, but I do know it’s a risk, us being together. And I want it. But it’s fucked up.”

“Yeah, I’m aware it’s fucked up. And I still ship you two. I believe whole-heartedly that you two have the power to overcome anything in your way. You’re here for a reason, at least that’s what all our friends think, and what our families think. We’re all in agreement. Well, except maybe Jake, but he’s trying despite his dad being a dick. His kind are pretty uppity.”

“I mean, maybe I’m overstepping,” she added, her insecurity spiking, and even though I knew it’d probably be satisfying, I didn’t feed from it. I tried my best to control my anxiety, but I could feel my hands shaking.

“You’re not,” I assured her, and she grinned. Her grin fell a bit though, when I continued. “But I want it

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