I Can't Help Myself! by Thorne Jaime

Author:Thorne, Jaime
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: UNKNOWN
Published: 2020-10-27T00:00:00+00:00

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The car I'm in is inching closer to the wall, the bumper nearly pressed against it. I know I'm only seeing it happen slowly because the world is happening in slow motion and I know with absolute certainty that things are out of my control, but there is a part of me that knows that is a complete and utter lie.

I'm the one who asked them to do this. I'm the one who pushed them for more. I might not be the one who put us in the car but I have my foot on the gas and my hand on the wheel and I can still steer away from the wall.

But I just can't help myself.

"Feel her," I hear myself beg him, "Touch her."

I don't understand her plan at all, don't know what this is supposed to prove. It's stupidity, this silly little game that has put all three of us into this position. It's madness to keep this going but it's happening and it's going to continue to happen.

Because I can't say no to this. Because I can't stop myself.

I watch as Trey does what I order him to do, as his hands move from her hips to start roaming over her body. He knows the moves because he's been in this place before and I wonder for a brief moment but not for the first time whether they've ever fucked before. It's a question that has plagued me since the first time I met Leah and I don't think it's going to go away anytime soon, no matter how many times she reassures me that they're just friends.

It never made sense to me. They're too attractive, too close, too perfectly matched. Hell even right now they look good together, better than I ever did standing next to her.

I can remember only one time that the man who raised me ever gave me a compliment. It was the day of my wedding when he clapped me on the back after the deal was done and he led me to the bar, grabbing us both a drink to toast to my new wife.

And he leaned in close enough that only we could hear, and he told me something that I'll never forget.

"Never thought you'd do it. Never thought you had it in you. She's quite a woman, better than you deserve and don't you forget it."

It felt, in a lot of ways, like that moment defined both my relationship with him and my relationship with her. The power imbalance and the implication.

Because the thing about him is that he would have no doubt if it was his ring she was wearing. He would know that she wanted to be with him, age difference not meaning a thing to him, because he looked at the world full of shiny things that he wanted and he thought that he deserved to have them.

But me? I know I don't deserve her.

Trey slides his hands over her stomach. I think he leans in close and smells her hair.

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