Blue Collar Bad Boys Volume 2 by Brill Harper

Author:Brill Harper
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: alpha male, first time, military hero, dilf, babysitter, working class hero, nerdy heroine, instalove, instalust, bad boy good girl romance, girl next door, older man younger woman, older brother's best friend, holiday romance
Publisher: Brill Harper
Published: 2017-11-19T00:00:00+00:00

Chapter Seven

Conner

I’ve been shitty to everyone at work today, and I can’t work up the fucks to care about it.

Last night, my first night without Cassidy in the house with me in a long time, was horrible, but it was a picnic compared to finding out she wants out permanently.

Yeah, okay. I blew it by introducing her as the nanny. I’m not ashamed of her. Of us. But it’s complicated and not something I wanted to discuss with my idiot friends before I’ve discussed it with Cassidy.

And at the first sign of trouble, she’s out.

Right. Okay. That’s not fair. There have been lots of signs of trouble over the last seven months, and she hasn’t bailed. She’s stuck by me through everything. She’s been the person that kept me tethered to the planet when gravity was gone.

So how can she just leave me now? Am I so easy to leave? Are the girls? I thought she loved them. I thought we were building something. None of it makes sense.

She’s only eighteen.

I try to remember what I was like at that age. I should cut her some slack. She should be going to parties and having fun. Maybe I really am a selfish bastard. Have I been trying to mold her? Manipulate her? Maybe I should have known better. Pushed her away. Maybe after some time has passed, I’ll realize that I was using her, even if I didn’t mean to. That I was blinded by the pretty girl and the convenience of having a ready-made mom for my girls and a wife for my house.

Wife.

Fuck.

I love her. I want to marry her. Those feelings I had the first time we made love were real. She’s mine. I say that to her every time we fuck—but I guess I never say it when we have clothes on. How would she know how I feel if I don’t tell her? She probably thinks the things I say about her being mine are just sex talk.

I have screwed this up. Bad. Maybe she’s right. Maybe we’d all be better off if she moved out. She needs to be free. Have fun. I’ll find a nice grandma-like nanny for the girls. I’ll concentrate on being a good dad. Things will be fine.

Yeah. No, they won’t. I want to rage at the world. This is why I never let myself get close to anyone before. I’m not cut out for loving and losing.

I see Deacon approaching. He looks nervous. I don’t blame him, I’ve been biting off everyone’s head.

“Hey man, I need to talk to you,” he says.

“Not a good time, Deacon.”

I turn back to my work, but he grabs my arm. I get a good look at his face and my world bottoms out again for the second time in less than a year. I know that look. That’s the same one that was on the cop’s face when he told me Sandy died.

“No,” I say. The world starts spinning. My mouth tastes like copper.

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