Saving Cruz (The Moran Family) by Alexis James

Author:Alexis James [James, Alexis]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: novel
Publisher: Alexis James
Published: 2016-10-04T04:00:00+00:00

Unable to face him or anyone else for that matter, I shoot off a text early Monday morning and say I’m sick. It’s not a lie. I am sick … sick of all the hate and tension, sick of all the uncertainty. I’m sick of wanting someone I can’t have, sick to death at myself for being such a weak, desperate female.

So my answer to this sickness is my favorite cotton pajamas, the fuzzy blanket my mom gave me last Valentine’s Day with pink and red hearts all over it, and a big calorie-laden mug of hot chocolate.

And an entire bag of mini-marshmallows.

And my favorite movie: An Affair to Remember.

And of course, some tissues. Lots and lots of tissues.

I’ve ignored my phone. In fact, it’s stowed away upstairs so I’ll keep my grubby hands from calling him and apologizing. I have nothing to apologize for. Well, not to him anyway. His family … well, no amount of apologies will make up for what happened yesterday, but I did manage to do my best when Marco drove me home. For once he stayed silent, letting me wallow in my own crap, giving me a sorry-you-made such-a-fool-of-yourself smile before driving away and leaving me standing there on the sidewalk crying once again.

Ugh. I am such a baby. I hate that side of myself more than I hate what Cruz is doing to me. More than I hate the idea of never seeing him again. I’ve got to grow some lady balls, as Amita would so eloquently tell me, and you know what? She’s right. I’ve got to toughen up if I want to keep this job. This once in a lifetime job with killer benefits and amazing take-home pay. Suck it up, she’d tell me, and she’d be right.

Balls and sucking it up. Got it.

Really? Because your weepy butt on this couch says otherwise.

My eyes stray to the screen as the movie begins, and I wonder if we women haven’t been led astray somehow. Real men aren’t like Cary Grant: well-spoken, smooth and kind. Real men are coldhearted jerks, who take what they want and leave you with the crumbs. Real men don’t wait for hours on end at the top floor of the Empire State Building. Real men leave you crying like a fool in front of their entire family.

Ugh … enough already.

Slurping down some of the chocolaty wonder, I have to admit that I did this to myself. I could have been a good assistant—yes sir, no sir, right away sir—continued to date Darren—gag—and go on with my life. But no, I chose to have the hots for my boss. Then I chose to believe he felt the same way, when obviously I didn’t even turn him on.

Okay … well, that’s a lie. I turned him on. But not enough to finish the job. Darn it.

Shoving the blanket aside as my entire body heats, I take another sip and attempt to look at this objectively. Clearly there is something in Cruz’s past that keeps him from getting close to women, or in this case me.

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